So I've been done with school for a few months now and its october. (As most of you know) Whats strange is that as much as I love seminary and school, I don't really miss it. However I do feel like I am getting stupider by not being in school. I don't feel like I am learning much. My life basically consists of working, eating, sleeping, and socializing.
I can understand why people don't feel the need for God...because quite honestly if I wasn't a christian I don't know how much I would ask the question, "What's the meaning of life?" THere really isn't any time to stop and think about it. But what I have noticed is my lack of God. I have to actively pursue God and actively mentally, emotionally, spiritually be aware of my walk with God. That is strange. In seminary it was great, I loved it. I had this great network and we talked about theology, life with God, Christianity...basically all things Jesus. Now that I am done with that...I don't have it anymore and I miss it. I realize how many things have fallen off..I don't journal as consistently, I don't read as consistently and I don't spend time with God as consistently. It really is a discipline..its not even a habit. Its a cognitive decision for me to wake up every morning and spend time with God. Its hard. Its hard but necessary. I know it is. I know what my day is like when I don't do it and I know what my day is like when I do do it.
I'm in a transition stage right now and I guess I'll have to figure out what my life will look like once I get to Taiwan. I hope that I hear from all of you and expect some time of prayer later soon.
