Her name is Whitney

I have been working at a Taiwanese at-risk youth center for almost two years now.  I love working with these kids not because I think that I am changing their lives but because all of them don't act as if their lives are terrible.  They don't play the pity card.

I teach these kids English and they work hard.  Well most of them do.  Some of them have given up on learning the language and attend the class because all their friends are in the class.  I have gotten to know each of them and if you only just met them in school you would think they were just regular kids.

They are regular kids.  They listen to hip-hop, they dance, the scream, they trash-talk, they love their friendships and they love McDonalds.  But some of them shoulder more responsibility than some 30 year olds I know.  Some have had to deal with things far beyond their emotional capacity and yet they manage.   I love these kids and as some have come and gone and new kids have showed up seemingly out of the blue, I dread the day that will be my last with many of them.

There is one new girl.  Her name is Whitney.  She looks no bigger than a six year old but she is actually eight.  She carries this enormous backpack and has a cell phone for emergencies.  She is new to my English class and to the center. She is shy and quiet, but smart and quick.    Her English ability is better than half of my class and yet she constantly demeans herself and lacks any self-confidence.

Since we started the new semester two weeks ago, I have been walking her half-way home.   I enjoy this time with her.  I get to know her outside of the classroom and I also get to make sure she gets home safe, at least part of the way.

I found out she has a little sister that is five years old that stays at home.   When I asked her who watches her little sister, she didn't have an answer.  She doesn't know what kind of work her parents do and she never knows when they come home or leave the house.  She goes to school by herself, goes to the youth center when its open after school, and then takes the public bus to as close as home as possible and walks the rest of the way.

 The center closes at 8 pm and after a 10 minute bus ride, she has to walk about 15 minutes to get home.  I walk with her about 5 minutes of the way but the rest of the way she is on her own. I can't help but feel a tightness in my throat whenever we go our separate ways.   I offer to go with her but she refuses.

She is a responsible, smart, disciplined young girl.  With no sense of a clear upbringing I cant help but wonder where this sense of responsibility comes from.  Perhaps it comes from the lack of responsibility at home or the necessity to care for her little sister when she is home.

Whatever the reasons I admire her.  I hope that I can be the best teacher for her because she along with all the other kids I work with, are the best kids I know.

Please lift them up in your prayers when you remember.

My first prophecy

As some of you know I was in Norway for three weeks in September.  I went there for two reasons.  I needed some time off and I needed to see my fiancé Jonas Stava.  Jonas left for Norway back in May and I hadn't seen him in almost four months.

While my time in Norway was relaxing and fun, I also had the chance to share and meet with people who wanted to hear about my ministry.  I shared in a few different small groups and bible groups as well as two different churches.  I also got to know Jonas' family more.  I had a wonderful time bonding with his sister and her kids as well as his parents.  They are wonderful God-fearing people that I admire so much.   I enjoyed my time in Norway and I look forward to going back.

One specific thing I want to share is a prophecy that someone I'd never met before shared with me.  Towards the ladder end of my trip Jonas and I went to meet his former spiritual mentor.  This man is partially responsible for leading Jonas back to Christ.  We went to pick him up but he wasn't ready to leave yet.  Jonas' spiritual mentor's name is Olga.  Olga was meeting with an old teacher of his that had a really bad fall.  She was in need of prayer and healing.  They mainly spoke in Norwegian so I quietly sat on the couch and played with my phone, editing pictures and updating my calendar.  I could understand maybe 20% of what they were saying but other than that I was lost.   After about an hour of conversation Jonas said that we could leave.
As we got up to leave the old lady looked at me and said in clear English, "Wait, I think I have something for you."  I didn't know what to say. It was sudden and unexpected and loud.  (she was a fairly small woman)  I just stood there afraid to do anything for fear that I would disrupt the message she was receiving from God.
She prayed briefly to herself and opened her eyes saying, "Don't look behind you, don't look in the past.  Look ahead.  Look forward.  God is with you and he will protect you."  She paused again, then started to say, "You're life will be difficult.  You will be on a winding path with many turns and curves.  You're path will not be straight and wide.  It will be narrow and sometimes dangerous but don't be afraid.  You will reach your goal."  Then she said, "I will be with you as you walk down the path  I will send my angels concerning you. Do not be afraid."

Half way through the prophecy I was already extremely emotional.  No one had ever shared an actual prophecy with me before.  Some people have said to me, "Pattie, you will do amazing things one day." "Pattie, I know God has something big for you."  I never know if I believe it.  I just want to live for God. But I have never experienced anything like this.

I haven't shared this with many people but before I left for Norway I was seriously thinking and praying about my relationship with Jonas.  (If Jonas was the right person for me.)  I had my parents' voice in the back of my head and my love for Taiwan in the front.  Jonas is still in school and it looks like God's plan for him is to be in school for some time.  I don't believe Jonas will stay in Norway but I believe God will lead him to many different places and countries, giving him different experiences and cultures.  In other words, it would take a few years before we head back to Taiwan.  I was doubtful that we would go back to Taiwan and the fear of not coming back to Taiwan scared me.   A few people were praying for me and giving me words of encouragement but nothing really stuck in my brain.  All I did hear was, "Just stay with Jonas, trust in me."  But then that voice would be drown out by my parent's voice and my own fears/desires.

In Norway, Jonas and I talked and prayed.  His parents and I talked and prayed.  I thought and prayed.  I think I always knew that Jonas was the person God had for me but so many factors that I hadn't anticipated pointed away from him. Until I met this lady.

There is no doubt in my mind that what she shared with me was directly from God using her as a loud speaker in my life.  What she said aligned with everything I was struggling with and praying about.  My goal is to be in Taiwan and my path to get there won't be easy or straight.  My paren's are in the back of my mind as I look in the past instead of the future.  I never thought I would come face to face with a prophecy about my life.  Simple but to the point.  Just enough for me to understand and submit to God's will.
After she shared so abruptly with me, a sense of peace, love and joy washed over me.  I wasn't afraid anymore and all the things that I knew God was telling me made sense.
I may never see her again but Ruth, if you ever read this; Thank you.

And thanks be to God.